This year I decided to do the 40 hour famine. I've never done it before so this year I decided to challenge myself :) I actually thought I'd do pretty well, considering that I don't talk much at home. But nooo... I think I accidently talked about 20 times, and that doesn't even include the number of times I whispered too loudly. It's because I kept forgetting I was supposed to be on a famine. Hehe.
It's really magical actually. Before I used to talk without thinking, but now that I can't talk, I actually think about what I would have said in my head and a lot of times, I realise how ridiculous things sound and how they would definitely offend some people. It's hard for me to notice these things when I'm constantly blabbering.
So far I only have $24.35. That's pretty bad, but it's probably because when people donate $2+ I get really scared and I reject them. It's weird right? But I don't want people to feel like I'm forcing them to donate. So I'm happy with it :)
P.S. should I go to my year 10 formal? :\
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Friday, August 3, 2012
A Life Planned for Me
So many things happened to me recently that I don't know where to start. Actually, of course I know where to start. It all started with year 11 subject selections.
At first I had no idea. People started talking about it ages ago, and for me, well... I kinda evaded the subject. The thought of planning the future never appealed to me, especially as I have no interest in anything practical that I cab go down the career path of. It wasn't until this week that I finally started thinking about it. What should I do? What can I do? What is there to do?
You see, what ended up as the real problem never once crossed my head. I've always thought that I would have too little things I want to do, because there's nothing I like apart from the creative type of subjects like textiles. But no, what happened was the exact opposite. I had too much. I personally wanted to do legal studies, Chinese and textiles, which I thought would be perfect. Not too stressful, I like everything, and if anything clashes I'll just go with biology.
But my mum's interference changed it all. I was suddenly overwhelmed with decisions and plans made for my life by someone else. You know the saying that asian parents can force you into doing things, well I think i'm beginning to get a gist of it...
Basically, long story short, after much arguing and crying, I finally put down my choices 4 hours 47 minutes before the deadline. Legal studies, chemistry and Chinese. My mum also wanted me to replace legal with economics, but seriously i cannot cope with two subjects that i have no interest in. So there is only one change, but considering that textiles was the one I wanted to do the most, it was a pretty heartbreaking decision. You never realise how precious something is until you lose it. For the first time in my life. I completely agree with this statement. So to the boys and girls out there, enjoy your life while you can.
At first I had no idea. People started talking about it ages ago, and for me, well... I kinda evaded the subject. The thought of planning the future never appealed to me, especially as I have no interest in anything practical that I cab go down the career path of. It wasn't until this week that I finally started thinking about it. What should I do? What can I do? What is there to do?
You see, what ended up as the real problem never once crossed my head. I've always thought that I would have too little things I want to do, because there's nothing I like apart from the creative type of subjects like textiles. But no, what happened was the exact opposite. I had too much. I personally wanted to do legal studies, Chinese and textiles, which I thought would be perfect. Not too stressful, I like everything, and if anything clashes I'll just go with biology.
But my mum's interference changed it all. I was suddenly overwhelmed with decisions and plans made for my life by someone else. You know the saying that asian parents can force you into doing things, well I think i'm beginning to get a gist of it...
Basically, long story short, after much arguing and crying, I finally put down my choices 4 hours 47 minutes before the deadline. Legal studies, chemistry and Chinese. My mum also wanted me to replace legal with economics, but seriously i cannot cope with two subjects that i have no interest in. So there is only one change, but considering that textiles was the one I wanted to do the most, it was a pretty heartbreaking decision. You never realise how precious something is until you lose it. For the first time in my life. I completely agree with this statement. So to the boys and girls out there, enjoy your life while you can.
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