Insulted

Insults are a form of art. In order to make it work you have to make sure everything is just right - the timing, the situation, the target. When you master the art of insulting it can be very funny. But if you don't then you might end up offending someone.

I don't know if this makes sense but I liked being insulted. I feel like it's a way of showing your 'closeness' with someone. If it's a friend who insults me, it makes me feel like they feel close to me and so they know no matter what they say I'm not going to get mad at them.

The person who I find so funny when she insults people is JL. She doesn't go around in circles, she does it so directly that it's hilarious.

'Marie, you have nose hair stick out.'
'Marie, don't stand next to Vanessa because your face looks way too big next to hers.'
'Marie, you sound like a man.'
'Marie, you smell. Sometimes like chicken and sometimes like sweat.

Anyways that doesn't mean you should go around telling people off all day. As I've said it's an art. You have to make sure your target is the type of person to accept jokes and sometimes, the truth. I'm the type of person to get insulted and laugh along with everyone else and then forget about it. But I know there are some people who don't like insults. Even if they don't show it, they will remember it inside. I personally like it better if they just tell me I offended them instead of keeping it hidden.

I really like insulting people too. In fact I think I do it more often than when I get insulted myself. But the thing is, after I do it, I feel really guilty. Even though I'm very sure that person is not going to get angry, I just think 'What if?'. And sometimes I don't get the timing right and things become awkward. But most of the time it's pretty funny and we all have a good laugh.

Yeah so the point of this post is, if you are insulted by me all the time, please do keep in mind that it's all fun and games and it shows that I think of you as a close friend. Because you definitely won't see me going to a stranger and saying 'You are really tanned. I think you will blend in with my wall' (sorry JG!) And if you ever want to insult me or just want to tell me the truth, just do it. Because believe it or not, I'd really appreciate it.

A New Beginning

School started yesterday, and ended yesterday too. Nah just kidding, it's a public holiday today that's why I'm at home :)

Yesterday we celebrated 2 people's birthdays - JL and Vicki. They weren't born on the same day, its just that we didn't get to celebrate JL's in the holidays. We got them lotsa presents so hopefully they liked them. Anyways happy birthday Vicki! I feel like I didn't say it enough yesterday.

Yesterday we also got my ID card. I look like a bronze statue, no joke. So brown. And oily looking. Therefore I look like a bronze statue. And somehow I managed to show some people my driver license, even though I promised myself I NEVER will in a million years, because that's how bad it looks. But they said i look fine. But you know not to trust friends when it comes to these type of things.

I saw my friend's license as well. Hehe we looked about the same in terms of badness. I guess most people don't look good on there. But I think I laughed at her too much. She's a very unpredictable person so I'm sorry if I offended you, JG. :(

Pottermore!

Pottermore has finally opened up to the public! Since I didn't get to join before I straight away got an account after finding out the news from my friend's blog. Yay! :)

I just got my wand.

That's pretty short hey? But it's fast! I like fast. Is seven Galleons considered to be expensive?

Anyways I'm having fun playing it. Hopefully I won't get addicted. I really cannot afford to get addicted to another thing.

Haircut

I cut my own hair today. It was really fun but it took so long and I had my lunch later than I normally would, which is a really big deal for me. But overall I think it turned out pretty nicely. It's still the same length but thinner and has this layered looking effect. This is the video I followed:

I love getting a haircut at the hairdressers but sometimes it's just too expensive and it doesn't turn out the way I want it to. So I did it myself. The bad thing is I cut my own finger by accident. It's not as bad as it sounds but it did hurt and bleed :(

So much hair!!

True love or true lust?

Recently I've been watching a lot of dramas and movies. I know I should be doing work but I can't stop. But have you ever wondered why people actually watch them? There are many reasons but i think it's because they let us dream, they let us dream about finding true love.

Most happenings in romantic comedies are unrealistic. How likely is it that you are on a bike and get hit by a speeding car whose owner didn't see you because he was picking up his phone that dropped under the seat and you end up hating each other but only to find yourself deep in love later on after 'coindentally' meeting him a million times and accidentally discovering his inner self and feelings and you end up living happily ever after. See how unlikely it will be for that to happen in real life?

So lately I've been thinking, is there really true love in the world? Or is everything just lust? People do fall in love but it's not long before they get sick of each other. They then either break up or if they have children they become 'family' and develop family love, which is kind of hard to explain. But I do believe many parents at the age of 40 would not be 'in love' with each other. They are just comfortable in each other's presence and are very used to the life and bonds they shall with the other person.

I want to believe though that some couples stay in love throughout their whole lives. Even if they have children and develop family love, they will still retain those feelings they had when they first started dating. Is that possible?

So here's another one of my billions of questions - how do you know when you are in love? How do you know it's not just lust? I researched online and here are the symptoms:

1. The world seems a better place
2. In the absence of the person, you might lie down in bed thinking fondly about him/her, and it only seems like a few minutes when in reality you might have spent more than an hour. And to top it all, you are not even tired of thinking so much. On the other hand, a day in the absence of that person might seem extra-ordinarily long.
3. In true love, flaws are accepted without complaints and if necessary, compromises are consciously made.
4. Your happiness does not seem complete until you have shared it with your beloved. You do not think twice about compromising on your needs, if you feel the needs of your partner are not fulfilled.
5. You never get bored of the person even after several years of knowing each other. Everyday, you can talk and chatter and never run out of words, or grow tired listening. You know everything about him/her and yet he/she continues to amuse you.

I think that almost all of these points can apply to some of my closest friends. But they are all girls. Does that mean I'm in love with them? :( See, that's what gets me confused.

Let me know if you have seen or experienced true love before. So then I can live in the comfort of knowing it actually exists in the world and not just dramas and movies. :)

Getting my Learner License

Yesterday I went and took the DKT (Driver Knowledge Test). I was really nervous because I was really scared I was going to fail the test. But it was really easy so I passed! :) And now I have my learner licence. I can't show you it but let me tell you, the photo is soooo ugly because the lighting was terrible and they made me take off my glasses... Also the shadow of my hair covered my neck so it looked like I had a black neck. I had no idea whether to smile or not so I just tensed my mouth into an awkward curve. Yeah the photo experience wasn't so great.

So if you are over 16 or approaching this age then you should go get your license too! Because the test is very easy to prepare for. Actually maybe not. The suggestions online on RTA are that you study the RUH (Road Users' Handbook) but I would highly recommend you study the 'Driver Knowledge Test Questions', because those are ALL the questions you could ever be tested. So as long as you know each and every answer of those you will be perfectly fine. Then you can just read through the RUH once or twice and I assure you that you will pass. Unless if you get a mind blank or something.

Road Users' Handbook
Driver Knowledge Test Questions

Have to drive 120 hours. Anyone care to come along?

They gave me so many L plates!!! :) The more the merrier~

P.S. 1000+ page views! Thanks so much my dear readers :)
P.S.S. In the process of editing a video XD But I don't know if I should upload it because it's not all that interesting :(

Fashion wishlist

So since I'm a 'fashion guru' on Youtube I figured I should do some fashion posts. So this one's gonna be about my top fashion wants ATM.

1) LEOPARD HORSEHIDE STUDDED LOAFERS $657


You might think these are ugly but I think they are so unique and cool-looking!

 2) MICHAEL KORS ROSE GOLD WATCH $355

I love rose gold :)

3) RING HANDLE TOTE $65

Saw someone carrying this the other day and it looked gorgeous!

4) CHAIN & SPIKE DOUBLE ROW NECKLACE $15

I'm not suicidal but I LOVE everything spiky!

5) LIQUID/LEATHER LEGGINGS $20 and SUADE & LEATHER SHORTS $114

Leather! Lalalalaaaaaa~

Leather and suade! My favourite materials happily together :) Lalalalaaa~

I also really want a denim jacket, but haven't found one I really like yet. But you should definitely check out this video by Beautycrush. It's an awesome DIY and I really want to do it :)



Gut feeling

AAAAAA It's only 10AM and I'm already doing a blog post AAAAAA I'm going crazy and bursting with emotions. M.U.S.T. E.X.P.R.E.S.S.

I have this gut feeling. I've always had it actually. I feel like when I'm at school and socialising and making friends, I'm creating a hole. Yes, a hole, one that proves I have a place amongst my friends and classmates. But sometimes that hole can start to close. Like when you have an argument with someone, or you do something that everyone disapproves of. That hole can then close due to your 'place' degrading in everyone's hearts. Do you know what I mean?

Right now is a time when i feel like my hole is closing. It's the holidays, so isn't it supposed to be a time of fun and hanging out with friends? But I'm grounded. In case I haven't mentioned it enough, I'm grounded :'( Just for this week. But everything happens this week! And I can't go to any of them :( I keep rejecting people and my hole is slowly filling. By the end of this week the hole would be half-full and I would have missed out so much :(

There's another gut feeling. One that I've always had as well. If you are a Youtube person you would definitely know Juicystar07. If you've watched her 'Throughout the Years 10th Grade' you would know she got bullied for her videos and had to become homeschooled. I'm a Youtube person too and I make videos. The reason I have been keeping it amongst close friends is because of fear. Yes, fear. Fear that once people know, they will laugh at me and tease me for it. Not that my school is that type of school, but things do happen behind people's backs. People do talk without you knowing, or worse, with you knowing. Nothing like that has happened yet as far as I know and I hope it never will.

So if one day suddenly you can't find my blog or my channel or my videos anymore, you would know why.

Gosh that was so depressing :| But don't worry! For now I'm still happy me :) And I enjoy what I do so have no plan to stop this enjoyment any time soon.

Twosome

I uploaded two videos today :) Yes you should be very proud of me =D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1YpdSjNqF3c

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ADv-yfKUQcQ

(The thumbnails are so ugly but can't change them because I'm not partnered *sad face* )

I'm thinking of doing some more videos. The next one is probably going to be a tag like the 'Seven Deadly sins of Beauty/Fashion'. Any other ideas or requests?

Oh and did I mention I'm grounded for this week. Can't go out with friends :'( So sad.

Sad Easter :(

Aaaaa I got my first comment on this blog :) yay! I wish more people commented. I love reading them more than anything.

Today my neighbor was really nice and gave us some bakeries to celebrate Easter.

YUM!! See how the middle cake is so small? Hehe that's because I cut half of it and ate it :)

I really wanted to film a video today but couldn't because it's the public holidays and the whole family was home. That's why I barely make videos. I'm always in the mood to film and I have plenty of ideas on what I want to do but if there's someone listening or watching me when i film, I seriously cannot stand it. Plus I have to make sure the lighting is good so I have to go to my mum's room so I can only make a video when she's not home :(

There's an even bigger problem. My mum wants me to take the Driver's Knowledge Test so I can get my L plate this holidays. She wants me to take the test next monday! But there are like 200 pages I have to read through and another 100 pages I have to memorize @.@ So now she makes me say no when people invite me to go out and play with them anymore. Aaaaaaaa so sad.

I wish I had a life :'(

YG audition Sydney 2012

I just came back home from a very tiring day. First I woke up at 6 in the morning because I was feeling really nervous and couldn't sleep. I watched a bunch of YouTube videos on singing and copied the warm up exercises and ended up waking the entire house. Then I decided since it's an audition and it was getting filmed, I wanted to cover the 'chicken chilly tenders' on my face (a.k.a. Pimples). So I used my Revlon Colorstay Foundation mixed with Garnier BB Cream and finished with some powder, blush and lipstick.

Sheree came to pick me up and off we went. When we got there, there was already a lot of people even though it was still earlier than the official audition time. Everyone was so fashionable and talented looking and here I was looking like I was in my pyjamas.

Me in my 'pyjamas'

Sheree already had a number so she went first. I decided to sing 'Defying Gravity' and she sang W by JYJ. I've been helping her for the past week and she has improved a lot. I'm sure she sounded amazing and I hope she gets in because it's one of her dreams but I'm really gonna miss her if she ends up going to Korea.

My beautiful Sheree <3

After finding some schoolmates and lining up in the hot sun, I made some friends while I was cooked to a 'well-done' steak. One of the guys I met came all the way from Melbourne without telling his parents. He's 17 and has blonde hair even though he was Chinese. It was pretty interesting to talk to him and some other people and I realised something amazing - I don't get nervous around guys anymore.

When I went inside to sit to wait for my turn, I felt really nervous. My friend Jojo was next to me and she must have been pretty annoyed because I kept humming. When it was my turn I went inside the hall and there were 6 people who were auditioning seated down, one judge, 2 film crews and 1 video camera. I positioned myself on the cross we were meant to stand on and sang, off-tune. So I had to start again and because I was so nervous I forgot to smile :( and I forgot to tell them to bring Big Bang to Australia. I got cut off at the end of my first chorus and that was the end of my audition.

When my audition finished Sheree surprised me with a macaroon :) Yum yum!

Afterwards me and Sheree had lunch, took some photos and went shopping. Overall it was a really fun experience and I'm glad I decided to try something new thanks to a very inspiring speech at camp :)

My fashionable friend

AAAAAAA

Remember how I told you I have this audition? Well that's tomorrow. And I'm feeling really really nervous right now.

Basically, the Korean company YG which Big Bang and 2EN1 are under is coming to Australia to look for new family members. They want some talented folks to become their trainees. I'm doing the audition because I want to see what it's like and meet some talented people out there and expand my horizons. I also thought it would be really fun because my friend Sheree is also doing it so we could go together and go hyper :)

But right now I'm feeling so extremely nervous because my throat's feeling really funny and my voice is really shaky and i feel like the original goal to just have fun has disintegrated. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. I hope it gets better soon.

Tomorrow Sheree's coming to pick me up and we are going together to the audition place. Her number's confirmed but mine isn't so i'm going to have to wait and see. But I know there are probably gonna be around 500 people or over so the chance of me getting in is less than winning a million dollar lottery. But that's not the purpose of the game. I must keep this mind so I don't get too depressed when my self-esteem is hurt :(

Wish me luck!

Sydney Royal Easter Show

Today I went to the Sydney Royal Easter Show with my school. The day was really long so this post will probably be really long so I will try not to ramble.

The morning started with me freaking out over forgetting to buy a train ticket. Turned out you didn need one but I had already called a friend and she bought one for me from her station. She's really smart and helpful when it comes to times like this so I'm really grateful. Thanks JG!

Had a nice chat with some friends (or just schoolmates?) on the train. After arriving and roll call we were allowed to go explore the show ourselves so we wondered around looking at everything. Then we hanged out with animals. The smell was unbelievable, and I don't mean that in a good way. But the sheep and goats were so cute and we got to feed them and pat them. The chickens were pretty unfriendly. One nearly pecked a hole through my hand when I tried to feed it goat food. There were also pigs. They were so big and all sleeping and it really reminded me of 'Animal Farm'. I also saw a camel. Its bump was really weird. It was really high up and looked like an 'apple' that grew at the wrong place (the bump you find on men's throats).

Everyone was really hungry by now so we hunted for food for a really long time. There was so much food and they were all junky which is what I like but most of my friends are very healthy. I ended up eating my lunch from home which were some chicken nuggets and shared a 'hot dog on stick' with a friend. It's a sausage with pastry wrapped around it. I made sure I was as Asian as possible and squeezed on top every type of sauce I could find - tomato, barbeque and a LOT of mustard, just because I have tried it before. The mustard was really salty but the thing was really nice. Then I was still hungry so I scavenged some food off other people and filled my belly up with chips, Oreos,chilly chicken, spring rolls, dim sum and coke. Yeah I know, that's a lot of stuff.

Next we looked through artworks and pieces people have entered for the Easter Show that won prizes and were on display. Gosh they were amazing. There's no explanation needed, just have a look yourself.


Some amazing textiles pieces

Yes, that is all made out of cake. Including the flowers and parrot and the 1 metre macaroons

Some of the artworks were extremely to my taste.

Yum!! There was so much food my eyes were bedazzled



Hi JL I found a really funny pic of a lion. Hey Viv I found a pretty hot guy you might be interested in. Yo Vicki here are some licorice you might have liked to try. Oh and that's Vanessa butt which I accidentally took a pic of when I was trying to take a pic of her bag but she suddenly moved so that's what I ended up with ;)

Then we discovered something amazing - food sampling!!! The afternoon was spent walking down gazillion corridors looking and eating the samples. Yum!! Woolworth was the best. They had corn and fish and beef and nuts and yoghurt and ice cream and chips and tea all out for people to eat. I was in heaven :)


I love Woolworths now!

When it was time for roll call again we didn't want to go, so we ended up going back in after exiting the show. I think my textiles teacher hates me now because I was being all whiny when at first she said we couldn't stay :( Then we looked through more aisles of food and artworks, ate some more and went to get out showbags!! Exciting :) I bought the Dolly one and the Gobster one. Then two friends left and two stayed. So the three of us went shopping in this fashion place with all these boutiques. It was really fun :) I might make a video on it.

Then we went back to Woolworth and pretended to be all innocent and ate some more food samples. Hehe. The day then ended win me catching the train back home scavenging through my showbags and a magazine. Now I'm really tired but I still need to finish this and submit an application for this audition I'm doing, which I'll tell you more about later :)